How time flys

It has been quite a spell sense my last writing on these pages .  Aww Mom has been gone for 2 plus years know. Oh how I miss her laughter and her sense of humor,  know finding I must forgive myself for ever getting mad because she wouldn't call.  How I long to just pick up the phone just to hear her voice again.  It took me almost a year to rehabbed and then sell her home, it was one of the most painful time of my life and I have had many yet it still feels like yesterday I know that one day it will become a faded memory.   So many memory's in that house my mind is just letting me start to remember the good one... and let the bad one go.  It's funny how you can become more comfortable with pain then with joy.  My oldest brother has had his first of two hip surgery's, and is know living with us in the garage apartment of the second home we have had sense moving to Florida.   Grand-baby's birthdays have come and gone, how I wish I was the kind of Grandma that they longed to be with. They are all such a joy to have in my life yet I trouble to reach common ground.  And I find the gift I had as a child when my Mom would take us to visit my Grandma and Grandpa. At least one a month to the small town at the base of the Sequoia Mountains, a four hour drive form home where Mom and Grandma would put up canning for the winter months.  It was a place of youth the wild berry on the side of the road would turn to jams and, the mountain apple to apple butter and veggie would become soup.  I am now a few pounds lighter, with a few more wrinkles and a long for the day of my youth with less care and more wonder.  When I look at my husbands his hair has turned form the salt and pepper of his middle age to a sliver & white wave that frames his face, why do men always look better as they age!   Our eyes can now no longer carry us with out the ad of our glasses and I find more joy in the little thing in life. 

I have not become the old yet ! That old of my youth the one I so much enjoyed when I worked at the Motion Picture Hospital.  There is still time to adventure out and enjoy the nature I left behind form my childhood when I traveled so much more then now.  To explore what this great nation has to offer there is still time.   The places I have not seen across the USA are vast.  Yet I have done and see more them most will in a life time. 

I am thankful for the life I have had.  And when my husband say to me the second half will be better I think how can one life be so full.  With the gift of a step son and daughter who have held me together and called me theirs own who have shared there life and their children's lives with me when they didn't have to.  It Oct. 6th and the fall weather is rounding the corner here in Florida.  We just had our first few days of cooler weather.  Until we meet again in the nuggets of my thoughts.  Take care world ! 

Weed Wackier and Red Paint

What do you get when you add Red paint a field that needs weeding and 2 dogs?  Outside in the backyard Painting some patio furniture a vibrant red we were wanting some pop for the porch.  Picked the back yard to paint to spend some time with the dogs and enjoy the fresh air.  Almost at the point of stopping running out of paint and at a stoping point.  It will need time to dry before i can turn it over to get the underside.  The dogs are running around on the grass all is well, in one second all thing calm and peaceful change.   Weed wackier's going off, dogs bolt the puppy is now chases our other dog just a little to close to the leg of the chair.  Now standing in front of a painted dog and a (dust coved) fuzzy fur chair.  When the weekend came i began again painting in the garage, with my pink designer doggy on the couch.  all is well again !
 

Rock, Sticks, Snails & Friends

Nugget is going through a growing spurt he is much more active then Treasure ever was.  He is still having a chewing problem, he is so different he is less trusting, more awere, he is a bit of a hunter at the young age a 13 week he brought down a bird" sad ".   He was much quicker with potty training, he turns his bed upside down and would rather nap on the bottom.  He likes rocks, sticks, & snails anything that shouldn't be in his mouth.  At night lately he wraps himself around my neck to sleep and want to snuggle still so young but all boy when he is awake.   Treasure and him are fast friends now she has changed yet is still our little girl. He is still a puppy with so much to learn, what did i get us into?  Have yet to put him on a leash, but no regrets he was meant to be part of our life and we are blessed to have him.          

The smell of HYACINTH in the air and National Velvet

It's one thing to out think a man it is another to out smart him, and who will say witch is witch.

It's the dinner conversation about the ticket for the horse at first the winning ticket isn't hers and then....  
Forward to the seen: the pie is at there home and she's in the bed hearing him out her window then she is riding him now on the beach then the lobster sense and red polish on the young boy toes.  Conversation about economics and the card brakes the food come off the selfs.... The mom says her peace, Mi and Velvet talk, mom says to fetch Mi, tell me Mi what is wrong with a little falley.  Smart woman loving on that boy, & teaching Velvet.  Mom talking with Velvet every one should have a breath taking change at falley, but remember Velvet it has to last you the rest of your life time, make it last velvet!......  There is a time for every thing ..... Dad learning the important of falley..... So what does Hyachinth have to due with it! Mr and Mrs Brown good people. Mi and Vevlet's friendship grow!  "They don't make movies like they us to".        

When you loss your voice: and find your senses off balance:'

THIS LAST WEEK : While sick my voice went south i had to yell to even hear myself, i became Hyposentive about my voice when someone yells they are just trying to be heard so what is so important that i had to yell it started me thinking and that always get me in trouble.

 You know the people i am speaking about the one's that if their not getting their way they yell at you i have been that person for me it is after trying and trying to get my point across ( Control ). i love when you can see change finding that there is no longer a need to yelling i wont say i will never yell again but it's been a long time in this form of yelling for me.  Now when i find myself in a conversion with someone like that (old self ) i will try few times then i go to my safe place in God arms and rest,  no need to yell, to control, found this to be so freeing we all learn differently, we have all come form different places, and have different places to go. 

 Question is who is in Control :  It makes me think of all the times God has tried to get my attention as an adult how patent he has been, yet he is the one who let this child go through the things she did, and though things made me ME:   The Good that come form God the Bad and Yes the Ugly that come form past pains or future failure there was a time i would have beat myself up over and over about things, no more, less worries learning to love myself for who i am.  I  hope for less of the Ugly and less of the Bad while living through this life and trying to understand his plain, have faith that i will continue to learn  and find a balance along the way.  For now resting in his peace is all i care for no yelling needed on my part.       

If you were a nut what nut would you be ME a WALL nut NOW if a were a food i would be ...

 World vision has a program that will give 5x you gift:  Malnutrition can be stopped:  Our sponsored child will be turning 14 this year we are so very thankful that he do not need this life saving food.   Yet there is so many that due this food source  (protein + calories ,vitamins and minerals, = life ) it can last up to two years without refrigeration.  It's easy to use and can have a dramatic impact on a child's health it has a name it's called Plumpy'nut if i could be a food i THINK i would want to BE --- PLUMPY'nut

Pickles and Blarney

 The day before St Patricks day 2011 had a lunch date with a friend at Pickets Restaurant it was 1/2 way between us and i had not been before but liked the name.  We arrived and were seated by a nice young man my friend started to have a hot flash, well not really she is still to young for that but, she asked are you hot and started to fan herself and made another comment that maybe the heat was up do to all the older people in the restaurant looked around and there was only 2 young girl in the place most were ya old.  I told her i really wanted to take her to the new Pub in town,  knowing she had a weeee bit of Irish in her, so up we went and out the door. Yes we did tell the waiter not to poor the water, then proceeded to the Place of Irish decor and a bit of the Blarney we eat talked and played a good game of darts.  Now this day has memories for me it was the time i meet Bill's youngest Daughter she was 11 at the time we went ice skating funny how you remember some thing so clearly, the next day i went for a St. Patricks dinner to his home and spent a little more time with her.  He only got her every other weekend and a few week in the summer.  It was my first time dating a man with kids. She is now a grown woman with children of her own.  She has blessed my life in so many way and her kids are some of my g-babys. Over the year i have found my self in a bit a a pickle being a step Mom with out the father in the picture and thats no Blarney.  I'v been asked if i was Laurie's (my friend) Mom and that's all for another time yet i am glad our paths of crossed.  Laurie and i meet while in training classes to becoming CASA's.  and she had blessed my life also.   Happy St. Pattys Day